the high and the low of this weekend with ruby

we had a big weekend.  maybe i will start with the low part?  early sunday morning i was getting dressed in the bathroom with ruby standing next to me.  suddenly she screamed and i looked down at her and she was covered with blood.  so much blood that i couldn't tell where it was coming from.  we soon figured out that mateo had slammed the bathroom door on her finger.  her finger was losing more blood than i'd ever seen or smelled, so we were immediately in panic mode and ran to the car to get to the emergency room, some of us half-dressed, some with dirty diapers, some with no shoes on, later realizing we'd left our front door wide open.  luke and mateo waited while i went past triage holding this scared girl.  over and over, doctors and nurses came with warm washcloths and said how ruby and i looked like we were in a horror movie with blood all over our faces and necks.  they gave her something to numb her finger and she cried off and on and i nursed her so she slept and they could easily clean up her wound.  the doctor said the tip of her finger had been cut cleanly off, so there was nothing to do - no stitching, etc - and that she would heal but always be without that tiny bit of her finger.  i know it may not sound like much but that is when i somewhat lost myself and started crying.  that she was given to us whole and then there with me she lost something.  of course i have been through it a million times, wondering if i could have known the door was shutting, or seen something that could have prevented it, if we should have the doors removed from our house.  later a nurse came to tell me that the exact same thing had happened in her family - her dad shut the bathroom door on his little brother, but in their case the brother lost his whole finger.  so of course this gives perspective and i thank God it wasn't so much of her finger but it also makes me so terrified of the doors in our house.  we have implemented a "no touching doors" rule since coming home, but understandably it is hard for mateo to remember being that it is such a basic part of life to open and close them.  ruby is doing alright - mostly shiny and happy as usual, just with a giant sock over her arm to cover a giant bandage on her finger, and some pain if she hits it the wrong way. 

the high of the weekend happened the morning before all the trauma.  see below.